Each day as I kneaded the dough to make roti’s I realized i played out a scene an alteration with some family member or the other, the inspiration would be the same, the storyline similar the dialogue would just vary, the outcome would be I am angry and I am negative towards the person.
One afternoon as I flipped through a book that my father had given me, a book on the power of thought, it struck that these conversations were not real, they were fragments of imagination that made me feel victimized “Oh! The poor me, the unappreciated hero etc.”
I realized that my thoughts were creating a whole cesspool.
I then made a conscious effort during the day to monitor my thoughts and see how much I was investing my energies where it was not needed.
After all thoughts are powerful forces in creating our experience of life. I realized most of my misunderstanding with my mother-in-law was not because of what she did or say, or what I did or said, but because of the story we told ourselves to explain the word or action. That is our interpretation of what the other said or did. This could alter anytime.
Like my mother and Aunt Kasturi go for a walk each morning both in their early seventies take a good hour and half to cover the track. Both of them need to take breaks, my mother sits down, and feels bad about not being able walk so fast, while Aunt Kasturi stops to watch the birds, she told me something so beautiful I shall share it a little later. So at the end of the walk Aunt Kasturi is totally relaxed and energized while my mother takes a while to recover. My mother chooses to focus on diminished ability, while Aunt Kasturi chooses to focus on the availability of time to enjoy the nature.
Maybe as we monitor our thought patterns we can catch ourselves in the middle of investing our energy into beliefs of infinite possibilities of the present instead of our limitations.
At the landmark Forum I learnt that power of present, and not letting the past or the future effect. Setting goals, and visualizing is all fine, but we need to bring our thoughts into our current experience by taking steps to create them now.
Our thoughts are like a stone dropped into a lake, sending ripples out into our world to affect all they touch. We can choose our focus and how we invest our energy this will give us the power to design our lives to be whatever we choose in each and every moment.