Feeling lonely – an incomplete understanding.
Conversations with God is a turn point book in my life. Where the author talks of souls being from the same fabric. And he actually likens it to the aroma of onions being fired in a room and the aroma diluting as it wafts away from the room.
Sometimes I thing, feeling lonely is very much like that, that when we have lost the idea that we are all one and none of us are separate from the whole.
There are days when I presume like me you feel lonely too, but the very idea of loneliness comes from the false notion that we are separate and isolated parts in a world filled with other separate isolated parts. Actually there is no way we can really be separate from our world.
This whole concept of being alone is an illusion, like the skin that looks solid and all enveloping despite the fact that it is really porous. The air skin interface is blurred that we are not really aware where the skin ends and air begins, all the same our skin bears the effect of the change in the quality of the air, when it is dry our skin becomes dry and when it is humid our skin becomes moist and supple.
The author conversation with god applies the same principle, that it is really difficult to distinguish the boundary between one person and another, particularly when our actions tie us together so inextricably. Every move we make has an effect that touches all the people around us. On a more subtle level, when we share space with another person we often pick up on their energy, feeling how they feel attuning to them, this happens spontaneously without us being aware of it. We are part of the realities of the people around us, because we take form from the same energetic force and this force unifies all life. This force is the light that/ all the great mystics and gurus encourage us to move towards and this is the light we dissolve into when we move beyond our individual egos.
I did try to apply reading and what I did figure is loneliness is temporary condition based on an incomplete understanding of what we are made of, more relevant the presence of loneliness worked as a catalyst for exploring my ideas about reality. I tried testing the boundaries I believed separated me from the life within and all around me, I discovered I was not so solid after all and that I could not really be alone.
There was some things that said, like Elizabeth Gilbert summed up it up eat pray and love — “I’m here. I love you. I don’t care if you need to stay up crying all night long, I will stay with you. There’s nothing you can ever do to lose my love. I will protect you until you die, and after your death I will still protect you. I am stronger than Depression and I am braver than Loneliness and nothing will ever exhaust me.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love