Holy Christ.. if resolution is in war then this is not my resolution…yet if me muse over it then on the opposite lane is provocation!!
Thinking about it, we spend January 1st walking through our lives, room by room drawing up a list of work to be done, cracks to be patched. Maybe this year, to balance the list we ought to walk through the rooms of lives… not looking for flaws but for potential.
Resolved, to endeavor to obtain for myself as much happiness in the other world as I possibly can, with all the power, might, vigor, and vehemence, yea violence, I am capable of.”
― Jonathan Edwards, Jonathan Edwards’ Resolutions: And Advice to Young Converts
Sounds an interesting resolution but wonder what the provocation was.
Maybe if I provoke me, to give myself to me… then everything will fall effortlessly into place and there will resolution of minor conflicts in space. Maybe I need to look into what is this fascination of conflicts and wars.
Somewhere I do like making mistakes, for I make mistakes when I do something new, learning, living, pushing myself, changing myself, changing my world. It means I am doing things I have never done before, more importantly i am Doing Something.
Maybe whatever I am scared of doing, I should do it.
One conflict that I need to resolve is probably dealing with hurt that are dealt to me, to forgive or not..if I spend my time hoping some will suffer consequences for what they did to my heart , well then I am letting them hurt me a second time in my mind.
The cycle is very simple, if there is no communication, then there is no respect. If there is no respect then then there is no caring. If there is no caring then there is no understanding. If there is no understanding then there is no compassion. If there is no compassion then there is no empathy. If there is no empathy then there is no forgiveness. If there is no forgiveness then there is no kindness. If there is no kindness then there is no honesty. If there is no honesty then there is no love. If there is no love then God does not reside there. if God does reside there then there is no peace. If there is no peace there is no happiness… if there is no happiness then there is conflict because there is no communication… the battle is lost for the want of a horseshoe nail…provocative uh! So the resolution will be communication.
So much for new year resolutions, that are mine or not mine, for last year’s words belonged to last years language, next years words await another voice and to make an end is to make a beginning. Lets do as we do every New Year’s Eve… we made ridiculous resolutions, without knowing the battle, and quietly we all wondered what the coming year would hold, each of us praying for our own private miracles. Good health, better health, a marriage for this child, a good job for another. This hopefulness is something hardwifed into our psyche, that a new year might mean something monumental something wonderful could happen to bring us happiness at a level we had never known. A new year is a point to start over. Maybe, just maybe there would peace on earth for one entire day.