The Dinner Table

It’s the month of gratitude,

The group had decided to work on one area of their life each day. say a prayer a gratitude for different things in their lives. Today they were to identify the three people who made a difference in their lives and list 5 good things about them. well, that was actually quite easy she thought. She began with her list

Right on top was her mother and okay what was that she thought was great about mom – well mom didn’t call her until things really went south, and then it was panic. Mom stayed alone, because she wanted her autonomy… so when mom did not answer the calls, she would go into a panic. Mom took over all the stuff that grandpa, grandma, aunt, uncle, and did, that really not only Sadie feels incapable and an uncaring daughter. Like when uncle Vincent called up to get documents notarized Sadie asked him what documents. Feeling like an idiot. Suddenly she felt overwhelmed, because mom in her zeal to keep Sadie from being accused of controlling her had just left her in a void. But this day was not about pain points it was about gratitude…

When an organ fails, we use prosthetic ones, here the intelligence had failed. So ‘hail Mary’

Her qualities would be

• She is independent.
• She still takes care of my brother and me, and her siblings.

No, the pain won’t go away. Neither does the overwhelming intimidation of having to deal things in a vacuum, since Sadie was clueless, about the situations. Be it mom’s health, or whatever.

Strangely her daughters did the same. Kept her cocooned. If they called then they must have really run out of options. Traits go independent, willing to take risks, intelligent, capable the same traits as her mother.

She thought of her siblings, who lived far away and they probably met each other alternate years for a day and half. Even if one spent early 25yrs together the next 25yrs life had them trotting different paths, unlearning things they learnt and relearning new truths. Reactions and actions definitely would change with the new learning, so did hers.

Spouse?

The lust partner well that had died out, they were busy being parents, when the birds flew the coop, it should have been the time for bonding but they had just drifted the chasm was so wide that it made more sense to walk way. So again, what does one say

Siblings?

Well Sadie and sally did grow together for 25yrs, but the last 30 yrs. they have lived 2 apart divided by pacific, Atlantic and Indian oceans. Meeting for a day or two in 2-3years. If Sally and her husband were stuck in the 90’s Sadie and her husband had kept them there too. it was all crazy.

But wait did it really mean end of the road.

Relationships too had their span. One walked a path together and then moved on to newer realities and with each reality there were different tribesmen. She had to be thankful for

• To Vince who was as old her daughter, she would enter the office and give her a hug “Sadie lets coffee” the meticulousness of Vince as she cleaned her desk, laptop, and then began her work.
• There was Peter with his quotes and unquote who joined them. the discussion would go on building business.
• Patricia with her online trade, Alison with her boss challenge.
• Victor who was working on various computer programs.
• Mark and Anthony with their fake arguments and teasing.

God I am grateful for the Family who stands by me, through thick and thin, sick and sin.

Amen.