The Reluctant Learner

Somehow when I read this sentence the backlash of emotions and thoughts that appear in my space are crime and punishment, School, homework, and imposition. Yet it is an interesting thing to reflect on,

So maybe I should look at what have I accepted in my space. Some of them are sheer mundane things like when your eyesight goes quit driving. Don’t keep too many secrets eventually they’ll eat away at you. But the most valuable lesson I learnt was this…each day we get older and some of us get wiser, but there’s no end to our evolution. We are all a mess of contradictions, some of our traits work for us, and some don’t.  Over the course of a life time, people change but not as much as we think they do, nobody really grows up.

So maybe learning lessons is about living, and we live only if we grow, that’s a contradiction right, since we grow when we change, the only way we can change is when we learn, and we learn when we are exposed, and the only way that we can become exposed is when we throw ourselves out into the open. So that was the major learning, throwing myself out into the open.

As hypnotherapist, I ask my clients who come with relationship issues, what is the visual that emerges when we say love, and then the awareness is that the entire picture is flawed. But most often what does emerge is we have allowed ourselves to be loved by the people who really love us, the people who really matter. too much of the time we are blinded by our own pursuits of people to love us,  that is  people don’t even matter, while all that time we waste and the people who do love us have to stand on the side walk and watch us beg in the streets! It’s time to put an end to this. It’s time for us let ourselves be loved.

There are few times in our lives when all our instincts will tell us to do something, something that defies logic, upsets our plans, and may seem, and may seem crazy to others. When that happens maybe the best thing to do is to just do it, listening to our instincts and ignoring everything else. Ignore logic, ignore the odds, and ignore the complications and just going for it. It would probably whip up a storm. But once the storm is over we won’t even remember how we made it through, how we managed to survive. Sometimes, we can’t really be sure that the storm is over. But one thing for certain. When we emerge out of the storm, we won’t be the same person who walked in. that’s what the storm is all about.

My grandmothers told me don’t forget hurtful things but forgive them. Well that is something that I have not been able to do, all the same I would probably rephrase it to… forgetting what hurt me in the past, but never forgetting the lesson that it taught me. however, if it taught me to hold on to grudges, seek revenge, not forgive or show compassion, to categorize people as good or bad, t distrust and be guarded with my feelings then I haven’t learnt a thing. Universe does not bring our lessons to close our heart. The universe brings our lessons to open, by developing compassion, learning to listen, seeking to understand instead of speculating, practising, empathy and developing conflict resolution through communication. If the universe brought me perfect people how, would I ever learn to spiritually evolve?

A year gone is an age advanced. And age is a seasoned trickster. To our parents we will always be children. Within us, the same yearning of youth, the same aspiration of adolescence will last a life time. Only to the young, blinded by our grey hair and slowing gait we appear old and increasingly beyond the pale. If there is a single lesson that life teaches it’s that wishing doesn’t make it so, it is being that is important, and being allows us the doing that brings the achievement. No matter how much we go through we do not want to let go of those memories.

violet flame
image courtesy google.

But the kickass learning I had, is instruction for living a life is extremely simple

Pay attention

Be astonished

Tell about it.

Author: parwatisingari

full time mother and role play at being, dentist,dramatist, dancer, dreamer

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